When I woke up this morning I realized that I had not been to my home ward for 5 weeks and had not been able to participate in taking the sacrament for the last 3 weeks. It has been kind of a weird disconnected feeling to be away for so long.
I was really looking forward to sacrament meeting today. The added bonus was that Chris would be with us today (which I had forgot and not planned on). But all my high hopes were soon dashed as Halle layed on me, demanding I rub her arms, with Sean constantly fighting with her for my lap and being as much trouble as he knows how. By the second bathroom break I decided that was enough and went to the primary room with Halle and Sean. Tried to listen to the testimonies in there - but just didn't feel the same. Oh well, at least I did get to take the sacrament (and as my husband so lovingly told me - finally repented for 3 weeks worth of sins - and no wonder I was acting the way I was (what? - no one likes an overly stressed out tired emotional wreck of a mom on the verge of PMS?)).
And there is nothing like a kick start to re-activity than to teach the Relief Society Lesson which I had to do today. I can hardly believe that I have had this calling for over a year now. I still shake and get nervous before giving a lesson, but at least now I don't also feel like throwing up and fainting. I've really struggled with wanting and enjoying this calling. But at the same time I don't know how I would feel if I were suddenly released. It will certainly be interesting to see what happens when all the big changes happen to our ward boundaries this fall.
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Yes, it will be interesting to see what happens. I can barely stand the suspense. I wish I could have come to your lesson. I can't believe you had to teach your first week back. Luckily Chris was there during sacrament meeting.
Rough homecoming but at least you went. I'm sure certain blessings will find their way to the primary room:)
I'm sorry you had to teach a lesson after all that has happened. Where is the pity!
Halle did such a good job passing out the programs before sacrament meeting. She told me that she is changing the dressings on her pick line all by herself now. What a brave girl! How long does she have to keep it in?
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